backdated to November 18th @treefucker

[legbreakings]

Fucking goats!

[ Look who is back from the dead.

Yes, it is Jiang Cheng, newly returned to the lands of the living after humpty dumpty met a goat even bitchier than himself and took a little fall.

Still hasn't figured out how to network. ]

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[bearhole]

[ It's locked. And also, even if they were having this conversation some other way, Sigrun wouldn't tell anyone. She knows when someone is telling you something in confidence. ]

I'm sorry.

how did they die?

[legbreakings]

In battle. Of a sort. It's a long story. A very long story.

[ One he has been vague on here for the most part, even when it wasn't a matter of keeping their own fates from them. Because even after everything, even though he can't but blame Wei Wuxian, he finds himself loathe to have others blame him in the same way. ]

My older sister ran onto the battlefield both my former martial brother and I were fighting on. We fought on opposite sides. She was stabbed. He killed himself afterward.

[bearhole]

[ There's a lot to unpack here. If they were brothers in arms (or whatever "martial brothers" is supposed to mean), then how did they end up fighting on opposite sides? Sigrun is sure there's plenty of story she's not getting, but she knows this isn't the time to pry further. If he wants to tell her, he can do that when he feels like it.

She isn't sure what to say here. Offering condolences is one thing, but how do you offer condolences for a family member's death when the family member is here, and alive?

She hates this place. ]

are your siblings from the same time you are? I know there are gaps in time between me and my crew.

[ 'do they know that they're dead for you?' is what she's really asking here. ]

[legbreakings]

They arrived here from a point in the past. I was the only one to know how things would end for them. There were other factors involved, which made things more difficult. How they died.

It was difficult to be the only one who knows. To hold a grudge against people when you are the only one who knows why and can't explain it.

[bearhole]

[ As long as he's sharing, Sigrun will share, too. It would be kind of nice to get this stuff off her chest. ]

My team is from the past, too. At least, the ones I've spoken to about it seem to be. And there's one of them here who has to be from the past, because at the point I come from, she's already dead. So I get what you mean about being the only one who knows. I want to talk to them about things, but it's like... None of us are on the same page.

[legbreakings]

You will have to decide what would be kinder. To tell them or to leave them in ignorance. You know them. Maybe you can guess what they would prefer.

If it would feel like a lie to them if you don't tell, or if they would rather remain unburdened.

[bearhole]

I know they can bear the weight of the burden. I'm just not sure if I want them to have to.

I'll have to think about it a little more. talk to them more to feel out what they do and don't want to know.

[ Strange, how this conversation got all the way here from "Fucking goats!" but... That's just the way of things, sometimes. ]

hey. thanks for telling me all this.

[legbreakings]

At least my experiences can be useful to someone else.

You aren't annoying. Unlike most people here.

[bearhole]

ask my crew, they might tell you something different.

but thanks. you're not annoying, either.

[legbreakings]

If they think otherwise their opinions are wrong.

[bearhole]

oh, it's fine. I know they don't mean anything by it. when it counts, we all like each other enough.

[legbreakings]

That sounds like my friends and I.

Well, it's mostly me telling them they are idiots, to be fair. But they have it coming when they are idiots.

[bearhole]

hey, sometimes your friends are idiots and that's just the way it is.

[legbreakings]

You understand me

[ Someone after his own heart! ]

[bearhole]

I've got you.

if you ever need someone to vent to when they're being the most idiotic versions of themselves, you can always come to me.

[legbreakings]

Thank you. I make the same offer. We've got to stick together as the voices of reason, right?

[bearhole]

right!

[legbreakings]

[ They've got this! ]

Thank you. For. Listening. Distracting me.

[bearhole]

any time.

do you need any more distracting just now or are you feeling a little better?

[legbreakings]

I'm feeling more grounded. More like myself.

[bearhole]

good. now, just stay away from those goats.

[legbreakings]

Trust me. I will. I don't remember much but. There was that moment

I will be careful.

[bearhole]

good. I'll need you to stick around, as the other voice of reason.

[legbreakings]

I'm going to learn from this. I don't plan to die here again. Or at least not such a humiliating death.

I would rather not die at all.

[bearhole]

I'm with you. not dying is always the goal, but...

if us dying is what those Technicians really want. I say we don't give them the satisfaction.